Note: A slightly delayed farewell present, and dude, you gotta like this!
That time when you stole the last bit of dessert off of my plate before I could reach for it. I was so stuffed I couldn’t have eaten another bite anyway.
Me: I hate you.
You:(smiling): No, you don’t
That time when you dragged me with you, through the night, to trek up a hill and catch a rare sunrise. It was the most beautiful sight I’d ever seen, the best feeling ever to be above clouds with only the sun in distant view, surrounded by fog. Breathtaking.
Me: I hate you.
You:(smiling): No, you don’t
That time when I attempted to cook up a meal, (and NOT -as you put it- tried to kill us both in a kitchen fire) and burnt it, and you somehow performed magic (and NOT -as you put it- cooked another meal). We’ve survived quite a few decently cooked meals (by me of course!) after that, but it’s always that first one that comes to mind.
Me: I hate you.
You:(smiling): No, you don’t
That time when a movie I had been anticipating was finally in theatres. And I was ranting about wanting to watch it, but was unable to get tickets for almost a week, only to find out on the day of the release, that you had booked the tickets way in advance.
Me: I hate you.
You:(smiling): No, you don’t
That time when I was mighty pissed off at you for being out of town on my birthday, and had issued huge announcements about never wanting to see you again. I logged into my mail account at the end of the day, and the best birthday present ever awaited me: a video of you singing n playing my favorite song.
Me: I hate you.
You:(smiling): No, you don’t (and this part was also in the video after a perfectly timed pause for me to say ‘I hate you’)
So many times, so many memories, I could write an entire book recounting each of them, crystal clear in my mind. But really, it comes down to two incidents:
The time you told me about that interesting new job you were offered,
Me: I hate you.
You:(smiling): No, you don’t
something you always wanted to do,
Me: I hate you.
You:(smiling): No, you don’t
with real good career prospects for the future and a good pay cheque to boot
Me: I HATE you.
You:(smiling): No, you don’t
It was so much better than what you were currently doing, and way better than what I was doing, and I must admit, I was a wee bit jealous.
And then you said, that the offer was for a post in an alien country, with slim chances of you returning in the near future, if at all. I could literally feel my heart falling down to my stomach with a loud thump, and knocking the wind out of me. For the last time,
Me: I hate you.
You:(smiling): No, you don’t
And then, today, now. At the airport, waiting (but not really) for the time when you must absolutely go inside, and then never come back. Fumbling over words, now, after all this time, all these memories, trying to make goodbye seem anything but. We’d been over this. We’d agreed it was for the best. It wasn’t an attempt for me to get you to wait. But it was just something I had to say. To complete this. To complete us.
Me: I love you.
You:(smiling): No, you don’t
The rest is a daze, the huge bear hug you enveloped me in, the one where our friends were alternatively shouting ‘CRY!’ And ‘GAY!’ You’d think they could be a bit more emotional. But really, where had all these emotions found me suddenly?
I remember turning away as you said your goodbyes to the rest. I couldn’t bear to say it one more time. By the time I looked back, you were on your way in. as always, you understood me perfectly.
“Sometimes we love with nothing more than hope. Sometimes we cry with everything except tears”
And yet, as you walked away, all I was left with was ‘A Tear In My Eye’.
Note: There you go! Don’t really like drawing from real life, but it was where the emotions got me. I feel so gay writing this, but don’t worry, even I were, I’d still love you ;)
I already do, and will, miss you like crazy!
Song Recommendation: just the lyrics this time that fit here:
"He's everything you want
He's everything you need
He's everything inside of you
That you wish you could be
He says all the right things
At exactly the right time
But he means nothing to you
And you don't know why"
Everything you want by Vertical Horizon
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